Reel Me Out Then Cut The String

I know everyone has felt like their life wasn't moving. That work is just a waste of time. That although it is feeding your existence, it is somewhat insignificant. I have so many ideas in my head about what I want my life to be. Its painstakingly obvious that I am no where near where I want to be.

In a town where I feel I don't belong.
In a job where I feel I don't belong.

There's all these expectations put on being an adult and as a 22 year old I don't feel as though I'm up to the task. I still have lots of growing up to do and a career to build. As a musician I know where I want to be in 5 years and I'm hoping that this band I recently formed will take me there. Its early days yet, but there are promising results already in terms of songs, dynamics, and friendships. If it doesn't work I don't know whether its worth staying here.

There are prospects for a new job with a family member, and I hope that it amounts to something, but I don't want to get too overexcited about the whole thing. I tend to build up so many things in my life that when it comes its just a total let down.

Ideally, I want to make a record.
Ideally, I want to be able to make a living as a musician playing my own music.
Ideally, I want to be able to afford a life that makes me happy.

I have set a goal for this band. Concentrate on 1 or 2 songs, record them and use it to create a buzz in the biz. I believe there will be some powerful and moving material to do just that. The only problem is that the other guys have too much on their hands to commit to more than one day a week. Initially that will make it hard for me, but I hope that when it becomes more serious they will step up to the plate.

Watch this space - you never know where we might end up.